Ummm... so, yeah. Life. It's going on. lol
I don't have a whole lot to say. I'm still jobless. But, I love it. Not the not having a job part; the not having to go to a job that I hate part. I'm getting closer to figuring out what I want to do with my life. I can feel it. :) I feel great. I'm happy. I'm doing what I want. I'm broke, but that's just fine by me. It's really freeing actually. I don't know what I'm going to do or where I'm going to go, but I know it's going to be awesome.
I've realized that I've grown apart from most of the friends that I know here. It's sad in a way, but also, it's kind of freeing, too. No one expects anything of me. I have Philip and I've become very close to Brandon, but I've grown away from most everyone else. It's probably for the best since I plan to leave next summer... probably. lol... another uncertainty.
I'm ready to move forward. It's no secret that I'm pretty tired of North Carolina. I can't stand the summers. The heat is not my friend. And, I feel like I've found what I came here to find. I'm ready for something new. And luckily, so is Philip. Since he knows what he wants, I've told him to figure out where he wants to go to school and we will just move... Unless it's Florida. lol Fortunately, he doesn't want to live in Florida either. :)
Most likely, it will be Colorado. It's someplace we both want to go. But, that may be saved for later if he finds a school he really wants to go to. It doesn't matter to me. I'm ready for new people, new places, and new adventures. I have a gypsy soul and it's telling me it's coming close to time to move on.
Someone asked me the other day, "Aren't you scared?" The answer is yes. But that's not the question people should ask. If I never did anything I wasn't a little scared or nervous about, I wouldn't leave the house. I could die driving to the grocery store. I could fall down the stairs outside my apartment. Or, I could move someplace new and it could be awful. But, I'm not willing to give up all the awesome adventures I could be having for fear of something bad happening.
For all I know, I will move someplace new and I will not like the weather or I will have to work someplace I'm not thrilled about. Or, I could move someplace new and meet some of the best friends I could ever ask for or make the best memories of my life. I'm not ready to give up on the possibilities of those good things just because I'm nervous about the bad possibilities.
It's going to be awesome.
I don't have a whole lot to say. I'm still jobless. But, I love it. Not the not having a job part; the not having to go to a job that I hate part. I'm getting closer to figuring out what I want to do with my life. I can feel it. :) I feel great. I'm happy. I'm doing what I want. I'm broke, but that's just fine by me. It's really freeing actually. I don't know what I'm going to do or where I'm going to go, but I know it's going to be awesome.
I've realized that I've grown apart from most of the friends that I know here. It's sad in a way, but also, it's kind of freeing, too. No one expects anything of me. I have Philip and I've become very close to Brandon, but I've grown away from most everyone else. It's probably for the best since I plan to leave next summer... probably. lol... another uncertainty.
I'm ready to move forward. It's no secret that I'm pretty tired of North Carolina. I can't stand the summers. The heat is not my friend. And, I feel like I've found what I came here to find. I'm ready for something new. And luckily, so is Philip. Since he knows what he wants, I've told him to figure out where he wants to go to school and we will just move... Unless it's Florida. lol Fortunately, he doesn't want to live in Florida either. :)
Most likely, it will be Colorado. It's someplace we both want to go. But, that may be saved for later if he finds a school he really wants to go to. It doesn't matter to me. I'm ready for new people, new places, and new adventures. I have a gypsy soul and it's telling me it's coming close to time to move on.
Someone asked me the other day, "Aren't you scared?" The answer is yes. But that's not the question people should ask. If I never did anything I wasn't a little scared or nervous about, I wouldn't leave the house. I could die driving to the grocery store. I could fall down the stairs outside my apartment. Or, I could move someplace new and it could be awful. But, I'm not willing to give up all the awesome adventures I could be having for fear of something bad happening.
For all I know, I will move someplace new and I will not like the weather or I will have to work someplace I'm not thrilled about. Or, I could move someplace new and meet some of the best friends I could ever ask for or make the best memories of my life. I'm not ready to give up on the possibilities of those good things just because I'm nervous about the bad possibilities.
It's going to be awesome.
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